Alhamdulillah, we are leaving 2011 (or should I say 2011 is leaving us?) and approaching 2012 with all those hopes and memories. As for me, those years that I had leave behind are those with 'ibrah and messages, to prepare me for the days ahead. There were tears and laughters all the way along through out those days that I can't erase from my memory. The mixture of emotions, dreams and reality are well blended that it leaves me with something that I can hold steadfast to. There are times that I laugh out loud with my girls and there are also times that I really need shoulders to cry on. And I did. It's just soo colourful, just like my board now. And ey, I never regret it. Though there are pains that aren't really healing and the journey ahead is not like the primerose pathway, I'm glad for what I have now and what I used to have. I'm good with my own life, regardless of what other might think about me. I am optimistic about life, yeah, but still looking forward for the days after life.
Handsome Shayan in his blue stripe shirt, posing with Mr Tissue? ^_^
I got this kind of thought once I step out from the car this morning. Apart from looking forward to have a good results from my long-way-to-go experiments, I would want to make my surrounding (labs, colleagues, friends, housemates, teachers, family, adik2 usrah, acquaintances and etc (and oh even the mice *-*) ) happier. Well, happier in a sense that I can at least be someone that they are happy to see, someone that they would miss when I'm gone, and someone that would make them to remind the death and day after life even just by seeing me in a glance (ok, I'm exaggerating :)) but, seriously I am. (Ok, ini azam tahun barukah? Well, this is not the planned one). I've given all these kind of stuff quite sometimes to think of, and I came to such resolution. Well, I may InsyaAllah finish up my masters degree after few years, get marry and settle down, have kids in Allah's will but one more certain and most absolute thing above all is that I'm going to die anyway. Everybody will. No one will escape. But its just a matter of time that involve the questions like when and where and how. Seriously, no one have the answers to all of the questions above, neither am I. Ok, hopefully I didn't sound like I've given up with my life. Believe me, I'm optimistic to face the days ahead. Giving this kind of thing such a thought is just to get me to hold on to the reality while I'm setting the dream I have high up in the sky.
Hee, anyway, I've put some colours on my desk and board, with the smiling stars and moons, just to give some mood. Hopefully it will help soon, in case of I feel so exhausted ( and I think I will)
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That's it for now. No matter who you are, would you please please make du'a for me, cause i kindda need it. Hope to see you in Jannah soon.
Love,
Khairunnisa Razali.
