Missed Nina

It has been weeks since I last saw Nina. Tak tahu lah ni kes lari dari rumah, atau kes diambil orang atau bercinta tak ingat dunia. But, I believe the later one is not the reason.

https://www.instagram.com/p/BDXkxNBF58yfMv7JjQO3EvwEMIiC25xmHINWu80/?taken-by=nisaaraz

I only look for her once and that was the first and the last. The feeling of loosing and missing are unbearable.It hurts so much that I halted and went back home. Sorry sayang. I pray that you are now in a good hand, a family that would love you more than I do.

Blossom Belle 3.0

Now that I am in, I know that this will not going to be easy. I am officially under the BlossomBelle recruit. I have been observing the others since the first and second version were launched. And I heard so much about it. Most of them grew so much out of it. I saw how they transformed and fully utilize their hidden potential. I cant resist but to be one of them.

However, there's definitely price for this. It is my utmost commitment and willingness to leave my comfort zone. For the first two days in the circle, it wasn't that bad. I still can catch up with whatever the Nouricier is up to. Alhamdulillah.

The thing about working from home and be in this circle is you need to have a very good time management habit. Since that you have to make your online presence high, you have to literally be there most of the time. BUT, how can you do that when you actually have a real family to take care of? And two clingy cats? No, Actually I am the one who is clingy. My cats are doing fine. Imagine a mom with babies? Real babies I mean. They must have it harder.

So, this is the part that nobody else could understand except you and your closest ones. While you have errands to run, babies to sit, you also need to entertain lots of notification and messages from the customers.

But, there are mommies who make it through. Some even prosper out from it. Isn't it amayzingg? I didn't say its  amazing because they made a lot of money, but it is the ability to stand high but still somehow grounded is what I find very exciting. And the sense of achievement you have when you manage to break your very own personal sales record (We don't have to put high benchmark because we know ourselves better than anybody else).

So yeah, good luck and bon voyage to my journey with Mary Jardin and Blossom Belle. Please Graduate this time Nisa!

Write again

I was checking Dr Maryam facebook as usual when I learnt  that she has a blog which eventually directed me to my own blog haha. THIS ONE. Not bad for my basic level. I even decorated my blog. Seriously Nisa? My husband would be surprise to see this.  I used to write and because my ex was a writer, I got infected. haha. But the infection was mild as most of my posts were just some random rant. So, maybe, just maybe, writing is not my pure talent. I have to polish it up.. hew.  

But really, writing is fun, indeed. I can express whatever thought I have if I have nobody to listen to me. My husband, well, he's a good listener but he's a good lecturer too. I have a sensitive heart, so yeah, before he starts lecturing, its better for me to stop him first. And I cant keep talking to my cats in front of my in laws. They are cute but I need a smarter response. 

So HELLO to November. I have found you back Heart Serene. I hope it will give the serenity to those who encounter this blog and spread more loves to those in need. 

Love, 

Nisa

Leaving the comfort Zone

Last week, I read a post written by my favourite Youtubers, Anwar Hadi. It was about Zayn Malik (former One Direction) of not staying in the comfort zone. Well, perhaps because I have already passed the teenage time (when all the hormonal upside down take charge of your life) and I am so over this teenage obsession, Zayn Malik wasn't part of the long list that I googled and stalk into. I heard his name before from my  sister but that just  it. 

However, Anwar was right about his new song, Pillowtalk (Okay, please forgive me it is not the song that really matters). I have to admit it that Zayn has what it takes to be a seriously good singer. His popularity is not depending only on his look but it is his voice as well. He was famous enough when he was with One Direction (I only know him, I dont even know the name of the other members, so I guess he is famous enough because he is known to someone that dont even care like me, :P).

Anwar pointed it out that Zayn had taken a big step in his life when he decided to leave One Direction and came out with his first single. I don't know about his world (celebrity's world), but I can imagine it that he still had to work his self out to make things really working, at least for himself. Going out of your comfort zone to a new and strange zone will require a lot out of yourself. You will need to break some habits that may not be relevant to your new life and you may as well need to adopt new habit and make it part of you. And when I called it a habit, it means something that perhaps has been embedded in yourself for so long and it has become part of yourself. And the worst part of it, it may as well defines you before.

Its painful though, but giving up your comfort zone and embark into new adventures are the route mostly taken by the successful people. They didn't allow their life to be in a stagnant condition cause a stagnant water is always awful compared to the  waterfall. Like the clogged drain. That's why we enjoy waterfall a lot. The waterfall is always refreshing and we got our adrenaline rush and tranquillity both at the same time.   

I am taking the challenge as well. Instead of keeping myself to the same old environment for years, Allah has allowed me to learn and do something else that I have never imagined in my life. And it is a good thing. Yes, it is tough, considering my age now. OMG! I need to ensure that both my mind and my body can handle whatever surprises that are coming in my way. May Allah guide me to the right path. Amin. 

Best Feeling In The World

I have this habit of taking everything that I love to bed. Most of them are books. So my bed is usually full with books, and cat (sometimes). Since that I am a teacher, so the kind of books that currently occupy my beds are school books. There is one self help book that I took from my boss's bookshelves (I think she wouldn't mind since the book has been there since forever). Another one that I keep close to myself is the Quran (Tafsir). I know I should have keep it in some proper place, but I figure it out if I put the Mushaf  on a  book shelf, chances of it to be taken and read by me will drop tremendously and I don't want to take that risk. So next to my pillow is the best place in the world for the Mushaf to be. The Mushaf is the permanent resident of my bed, while the rest are just temporary and could be replaced according to the circumstances and my mood as well. LOLSS.

So as usual (not so usual for me to bring my students' workbook to bed, honestly), I went to sleep with piles of my students' exercise books and papers. They were all there since I thought of having a quick look at it before I fall asleep.That is part of my current strategy to optimise the usage of my time. Having 2 jobs at at time is really no joke especially when you can't manage your time well. OK, I dont have any intention to write anything related to time management cause I myself is still struggling to cope with my daily routine.

The next day, as I woke up from sleep, the first thing I saw was that pile of books and it made me feels really good. For few minutes, I just stare at it before I moved myself from the bed. And I was smiling and euphoric. Ain't that crazy?

That was when I realised that I actually in love with what I am doing right now. I love my job. I love teaching and I love to be surrounded with kids. No matter how small or big they are, they will always be my baby.

A Good New Day---- and New ME

Assalamualaikum wrt wbt.

It has been years and now, here I am again. Feels so much like home.

So its the middle of February and I decide to start writing again. No specific reason,  its just the momentum I got from all those papers that I have to prepare. Besides, I have been  telling my students to read a lot (but I havent told them to write, which actually I am about to. So, I have to start first). Enjoy while You can students ;)

I got no special issues to write but I do feel great today. As usual, I  skipped my breakfast again and this is like the thousandth time I've been doing it yet each day I keep promising myself that I wont skip the breakfast again. haha.

The rare thing about my day today is, I started it with a cup of good coffee. I think the whole day is going to be good as well (this is the feels-good-chemicals that I got from the coffee, I know it). I have to admit it, having coffee is good and such a great therapy to me. The thing is, my body cannot tolerate coffee very well. Poor me. I think I have to think of some other ways  to rejuvenate. I wanted to be cool like others as well (LOL) like you know,  simply go and grab some good coffee in times when you feels so drain out, but I just cant do that or else I will find myself struggling with severe headache. Well, that's the latest update about me. My relationship and Coffee isnt just great. Its an on-off relationship that I cannot rely on.

But everything else other than that is just Great. Great in a way that I have come to realization that though my life doesnt go the way like other people do, I have my own story that is still the best for me. Happy family with loving mum and lovely-sometimetimes-scary dad haha and siblings that are awesome. Well, this is the best part.

So its a lunch time. Will write again. This is just a kick start for 2016. Hope not too late to wish all of you and myself a great New Year and New Days.

See ya!

Its always about you

Today is my beloved B-day!

This is the 15th time she's encountering the date that is exactly the same with the date she was born fifteen years ago. Its 27th of October. The date had never change, neither do our love to her. She has always be the baby of the family since then.

the hype look of having the first time ever being away from home and family when she left for school.

Blossoming and growing up to be beautiful ever. May Allah bless her :)

Just like before, the birthday celebration is far from perfect. We didn't manage to celebrate it on the day that we supposed to. The most that we did for her was trying to make her rest assure that we really didn't forget that today is her birthday. Today is a long day indeed for us because eventually we're all still in the Eid al-Adha mood. There's still kenduri everywhere that require our presence, (at least we feel that our presence is require there though we're not really sure  does it really is, hehe). And, as we reach home, we're all worn out. Sangat.

Hence adik, I would like you to know that we dearly love you no matter what. Your presence in our life is utmost important and far more  valuable than any other thing in this world. Its not the date that matter, but rather its YOU dear.

Happy birthday beautiful.

Eyqa and adik in front of our late nenek's house.